So the big neon blinking sign that I left with from the conference is, "If you are working a 9-5 job and doing music in the evenings and on weekends, you are a hobbyist. If you are living off your art, you are an artist." And, "Be honest with yourself about where you are on the spectrum." Well I am completely on the left side of that spectrum (hobbyist). So I have all these new things to think about, which come with numerous fears!
Do I really want to work toward being an "artist" living off her art?
How do I do that?
Can I do that?
Is that how music is supposed to fit in my life?
Should I be content with being a hobbyist?
Are my fears fears to overcome or fears to warn against moving in the wrong direction?
.......haha just to name a few...... The speakers at the conference said several times that independent artists have to wear all the hats unless you have tons of money to pay others. Well a) I do not have tons of money and b) I don't know that I can honestly wear all the necessary hats.....but i do love hats..... :c) ------------->
So I'm currently feeling overwhelmed but balanced by a good measure of hope and comfort that I don't have to make anything happen. I'm trying to figure out where I should reside between pursuit and patience, confidence and humility, and openness and boundary. So my mind is busy, but I hope I'm able to accomplish some tasks in the midst of my distracting thoughts....not really a multitasker........at all.
I'm playing at Lindberg's on Commercial Street Thursday March 19th! Elizabeth Losson will be playing as well! I'm not sure what time yet......I believe it begins around 7? I'll update when I find out. Happy St. Patty's Day!!! I forgot to wear green today......don't even get me started...... G'night!!